i literally cannot do school anymore i have no motivation or drive for it and i’m failing in it so i see no point in trying anymore and i’m so fucking close to dropping out. the hallucinations and voices won’t stop and it’s scaring the living shit out of me. it’s 9:15 pm and i’m crying on my bedroom floor almost screaming and pulling out my hair because i’m so stressed out and exhausted and frustrated and feel like all i do is fuck things up and fail at everything in life.
i hate life more than anything right now and i don’t have the energy to do anything about it. i’m hopeless. i’m a hopeless failure who does nothing but screw up everything in her pathetic life.
wow i just read a very triggering post on sexual abuse/rape. and i just need to vent.